I never understood on what Dr. Faustus says to me from our last encounter, but it seemed that I am positive that he was going to return. It could be that I am Agliophobia, but I wasn’t quite sure when Dr. Faustus told me that he was like that. He had to accept the fate of what he was in reality, but I felt the struggle within my mind. I was sane except I was going insane when I tried to drink my tea.
I sat down inside of my own workshop while it was raining. I took a shower and it was lucky the workshop had a washing and drying machine except it was old. Dr. Faustus seemed to know about mechanics when it washed my clothes and dry them at the same time. It was behind the surgery room from the other room with the furnace, but I promised myself that I won’t go down. It included the room with meat hangers, but I wanted to wipe it out except I struggle with the pain.
“He mentioned that the pain begins to become worse,” I said in my mind.
I hated going to be pain from the beginning when Smexy always bullied me in playful, but a sink manner. I am not gay in reality, but I was misunderstood, except for Splendor cares so much about me. Slender considered me a brother except it was mixed for me being weak. I never come near him since he was different from Splendor, but I was scared that I ended up becoming the victim. I was scared to go near him, but he never considered me for what I am in reality. I looked down in sadness, but depressed when I go near him.
Splendor was the only one who kept me calm while Smexy caused me pain and trouble. They are my family in reality except we avoided our father like a plague. Splendor raised me and I couldn’t thank him enough, but it made me wonder if Splendor is aware of it. It was the odd reason when our kind doesn’t feel pain, but am I only one who could feel pain. I wanted to try to think positive when I don’t want terrible words coming from my father. He is weak in reality without his scythe, but he had the powers except he wasn’t very strong.
We had a reason to hate our own father who gave us life for a good reason, but I never understood him. Splendor mentioned that our father made a mistake when he raised me and I was stronger by heart, but he doesn’t realize it. There was one thing to think about when I have to struggle with the pain and how to overcome it.
“You will have to overcome your own pain and accepted it or else it will backfire on you... Our female counterparts won’t last long if it backfired on them; this is why they are very rare.”
He was right about one time, but our kind doesn’t have woman except it was rare in reality. There would be 1 out of every woman survive and continued to live off except their emotions are… Who am I kidding? I wasn’t sure if I was supposed to be a female or male, but I have to overcome it to prove them wrong.
“Mannequin…You’re just a plain mannequin.”
Dr. Faustus was very trusting or untrusting by his appearance when I encountered him from the beginning, but… There is something off about him, but there was one thing that I could say. He was right about one thing that I needed to overcome the pain, but… I tried to think about it except I felt the slight chill down my back as something broke inside of me. It hurts when something tried to come out of me except it hurts. It hurts when I felt a chill down my spine and it hurts.
It hurts, but I cannot allow the voices to get into my head. It hurts when I felt the pain trying to rip holes from my back. The voices continued to toy with my mind calling me just a “plan” mannequin or a “gay” mannequin. I tried to enjoy life and I wanted to be accepted by the humans. It wouldn’t be a successful one, but there are few that will accept my advises like I was their conscious. Some store owners think it was just luck except it wasn’t in reality, but it was me alone. The retail stores don’t last longer with sales when the customers show up for a new style.
“What are you going to do about? You aren’t strong, but the weakest one in the family and I couldn’t believe you are weak!”
I hated to hear my father’s voice toying with me when I struggled to gain control of my conscious. I refused to taunting by anyone from the past that I cannot be great like my brothers. I am not weak, but how to overcome my pain… How?
I heard my brother Slender’s voice from outside of the workshop, but I didn’t want to see him. I was very scared on what he was going to do to me, but it was struggled for me trusting him. I took a deep breath, but I flinched in pain when it came back. It refused to leave me alone, but I tried to be tough except the aura gets the better of me. Splendor wasn’t around, but I was scared. I felt the cringed in pain, but I tried to hide my disability.
“What do you want?”
He didn’t say a word when he could tell by looking at me, but he could feel my emotions. He could tell when I was hiding something and he could tell when I was in pain. He was the opposite to Splendor when he hated the humans for his own reason. I couldn’t blame him when the incident as the humans attacked him with weapons, but I had to come clean with it. He was the first one to come inside of my workshop for the first time, but I had to keep away from him.
“You can’t ignore me forever, but I know what you are going through… I saw what you are going through, but I am not going to harm you. Don’t think of such thing… I will never harm my family except for Offender with his misbehavior.”
I heard his words and sounded worried about me as a brother, but not mocking me as the weakness just like our own father. He remains calm when I tried to ignore it, but maybe he has some advices in mind. I got off the bed and headed straight to the front door when I struggled to ignore the pain. I noticed Slender stood there before me when he was calm except worried.
“Someone named Dr. Faustus came and told me that he won’t be around to help you overcome your condition.”
Slender shows the sheet and it appeared to be the medical sheet with my condition. He was not accompanied anyone except it seemed my fear gets the better of me. I was frightening except respect him due to the fact that he was older and mature, but deadlier. I wondered why the heck did the doctor gives him the medical sheets, but I didn’t do an examination by him.
“I could feel that you are struggling with the pain, but it is a serious matter,” he replied to me, “I am not going to kill you or mocked you like father have from the past, but I wanted to talk to you in person like a brother…”
I didn’t say a word when he looked at me in concern except his aura gives me a sense that he wanted to communicate with me. My fear gets the better of me when my gut feeling told me to never let fear get the better of me. I struggled when I tried to reach for the door except my body reacted with this. I don’t why my body is like that, except I tried to overcome it.
The pain was getting the better of me when I struggled to take one step at a time. This was the first time that I am communicating with him, but I talked with Splendor is around him to make me feel safe. I don’t dare go around Offender due to his sick, twisted behavior, but there was an origin behind how he becomes what it is. I blamed it on that slut who corrupted him, but it doesn’t mean that I believed him. It was able to open the door, but my senses cause me to fall back away from him.
“Trender,” my brother said as he caught me with his tendrils before I fell down.
It felt something trying to sting me within my body, but it hurts so much as I tried to hold in the pain. Slender didn’t say a word when he clings to me as he carried me inside of the Workshop and put me on the bed. I didn’t say a word when I felt paralyzed when the voices return to taunt me.
“What are you? Do you fear your own brother? You are a weak, pathetic, but a loser… A loser who never be successful, but you are nothing…”
I watched my brother looked at the sheets except he grumbled under his breath. He thought about who was Dr. Faustus within his mind, but I tried to speak as I wanted to tell him how it hurts. The voices continued to taunt me from within my shoulder blades were ready to pop out my spine. I felt the sharp pain in my back when I felt bones pointing out my back as I screamed. I hated the pain so much when I struggled, but it was paralyzed.
“You are weak, you are disgraced to my bloodline… I am not going to help you when you died, but mocked you when you are dead. You aren’t one of us, but you are a mannequin…”
I watched my brother remained by my side when he looked through it. He looked through the documents, but I had a feeling that he wanted to meet Dr. Faustus in person.
“Where did you have a phobia from the past?”
“What makes you think about that?” Slender answered, “I never have phobia from the beginning relating to pain unlike you, but we never heard such thing as a phobia or condition. We stick with our pain until the pain is gone… It’s how we have to survive, brother…”
Sometimes, I understood what Slender was saying something that he felt pain when the tendrils come out of his back. It cannot be him alone when the tendrils have ways to make the user suffered by the body. It wasn’t him alone, but Splendor and Offender had been through their metamorphosis. It was time for me to evolve like my brothers? They were able to bloom very early while I had a disadvantage when mine abilities didn’t bloom yet from the past.
“Curious that you haven't bloomed like us from the past, but you were the fourth one. Father, expecting you to bloom early and expecting you to become…”
“Please don’t mention “Father” to me,” I replied to Slender calmly except hostile.
I never saw father for what he was and it doesn’t mean that I will forgive for a good reason for what he put us through. I called the weakest within the family due to the fact that I haven’t gone through the metamorphosis, but the only thing held me back is my disadvantage. My brother told me that there was no such thing as a phobia or condition within my brother’s belief. The style of life we have chosen that we were forced to watch each other back like our own kind.
“I promised you that I will since I don’t show any interest in the Father’s ways of tradition,” he replied as he nodded, “Does it hurts?”
I didn’t want to admit that it hurts, but I had to replied an answer when I said, “Yes… Something wanted to kill me from the inside if I don’t released, but this was Dr. Faustus says…”
“Did he tell you about the cure?” he asked me.
“Not yet, but he will do his research about curing me…”
“Do you really trust him?”
I didn’t say a word, but he was aware of me when I blended in as a mannequin within the shopping mall. He was the only person that I trusted since he is a doctor except there was something more than his appearance. I wanted to speak out except something causing me to stitch my mouth to stitch back. I could feel the needles stabbed through my muscles and sewing my mouth shut without any drug to keep me from feeling the pain.
I tried to move my body except something preventing me from move the body.
Slenderman said, “Are you going to allow your body to get the better of you just because you have a fear? You are lacking of something if you compared to us. You needed to overcome it or else it will consume you. Do you want to live?”
“Yes,” I said in a weak tone.
“I cannot hear you…”
“Yes!” I said when I have spoken louder, except I felt the needle stabbed inside my neck and it's preventing me from breaking.
I hated it when my brother begins to taunt and I thought it was enough, “I can’t hear you… You better speak louder since it seemed that you don’t want live with that attitude.”
I didn’t enjoy taunting him when I felt the pain as he left to me suffered, but he is like my father. My father continued to belittle me for being weak because I was nothing, but a late bloomer. I cannot allow the pain to get the better of me as I wanted to live for a good reason. I wanted to live through everything that I love with the human culture and cannot lose this illness.
“Why don’t you accept the faith and die?” my father’s voice said taunting me in my conscious, “You weak, pathetic.”
“SHUT UP ASSHOLE!” I snapped in rage as Slender looked back at me in surprise when I sat up on the bed with the strength.
I cannot ignore the plan when I looked at my brother hostilely as my month ripped through the layer of skin. My teeth ripped through the skin and hurts so much when I screamed in my mind. The voices continued to call me weak and tried to discourage me when they tried to make feel the pain. The illusion from my own shadow and brother when I saw my father standing there.
“What are you doing?”
“You cannot, you cannot do this…”
“Don’t make a fool of yourself, don’t make a fool of yourself… Foolish one…”
He was my worst nightmare and fear, but my enemy. He was “The Prince”, but a terrible father when I thought of him. I wasn’t aware the windows shattered when I snapped in rage, but the flock flew over the head. I flinched when I am frightening when I looked at my father and fear gets the better me. I cannot allow the voices continued taunt me, but this is my body. This is my body and none demanding me to live.
“Whoever you are? STOP BELITTLED ME!!! You are nothing, but empty thoughts put me down,” I yelled in rage as I echoed through the forest as the flock of birds over my house.
My father disappeared as I saw nothing when I screamed at the top of my lungs as the voices faded back of my head except I coughed and wheezed as I was out of breath. It was illusions from the voices to try to scare me to think negative with me, but I realized that voices cannot control me anymore. I felt very weak when I was shaking as Slender caught my fall with his tendrils, but noticed that he had the two stitches on the face. I noticed the extra skin peeled off as I saw the eye. I paused when I realized that he isn’t my brother, but I thought he damaged by my scream. When Slender don’t get the stitch marks on his face, but it hits me when Slenders doesn’t act like that.
“You aren’t my brother,” I said in a weak tone before I passed out and then I heard Dr. Faustus’ voice.
“Vy pravy meine Patientin,” Dr. Faustus said to me with the “kukuku”.
Vy Pravy - “You’re correct”
meine Patientin - “My Patient”
I knew Slenderman wasn’t close to me as a brother, but I wanted to yell at him for fooling me. How the heck did he pull it off? I wanted to wake up except my body refused to allow me to do so, but the good thing is. The negative voices are gone now for good when I felt my mind at ease when I could think clearly.
“Schritt Eins was to klar the otritsatel'nyye golosa,” Dr. Faustus comments through me in my mind, “take back your body, but we needed to work on your cure… Rest now since it’s a long road to recover!”
Klar - Clear
Schritt Eins – Step One
otritsatel'nyye golosa – Negative voices
He is right when I felt my throat soured from the voice echoing and my body aching. It was a long road ahead of me when I felt very good, but the minor pain remains. The fears doesn’t mean that it wasn’t going to be over in one day, but they will come back to dominate me again. I wanted to communicate to him through his mind except I used it my energy. I felt him putting on the bed and put the sheets over me before he departed from the door by his footsteps.
“I will come back again for three weeks by that time,” he replied, “You will be up…”
I heard the door shut and locked, but I took a deep breath when I tried to get up. My body wanted to rest as I snoozed, but never felt like this from the past. I thought it was the first confrontation was an illusion when the voices tried to put me down again. I feel like that I was stronger than before, but there were two voices taunting me saying, “That’s I am just a mannequin” to try to get me down. I ignored it when they cannot dominate my body, but I…
“You tried to show courage in front of me, but think again… You will never face your brother…”
I cringed in fear when I heard the chuckle coming out of nowhere, but I had to be stronger than that. How am I going to overcome my own fear when I heard the voices inside of my head again?
My words replied to them firmly, “You will not discourage me to put me down, you have done it before… I will overcome my fear and you are just nothing, but my negative voices trying to not to advance me… You have taken advantage of me before, but not again. Go away…”
I will faced my brother and father, I will overcome my fear and discouragement.
“You needed us with the encouragement…”
“Don’t turn us away…”
“Please don’t turn us away, you will miss us…”
“You will regret it...”
This was the first step to recover when I wanted to hear no voice anymore, but the voices were loud for lower. They tried to reason with me that I cannot survive without them, but I could survive. The voices were no help when they are nothing more, but negative voices in my head. These voices think that they are encouraging instead they aren’t anymore from the past, but they tried everything to make me afraid. They tried to make become more afraid of myself from what I become as I tried to get too scared by making an illusion.
“How will you survive if you faced your brother or your father? Please don’t turn us away…”
They begged me to not turn them away and that I cannot survive without them until the voice is no more… They are wrong when they tried to make me feel the pain from the past except they cannot control my body anymore. This is my body and I live what I wanted and they cannot do that anymore.
“Finally,” I said as I was able to hear my own voice as I slept peacefully without any voice.
This was the first time sleeping peacefully without any pain, but the next task was to overcome another obstacle when I faced my brother Slender and our father. If I was able to get up, but there is maybe that I will ask Dr. Faustus, how he was able to fool me with one disguise. I wondered how to do something like that, can I do it too?